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I feel as if ive really lost my mind
I have the tendancy to constantly cause conflict/drama/problems in relationships, Just so that i'll have an excuse to fight
I did it with my last boyfriend, and he finally broke up with me.
But now i'm with(or was with) a new guy, And i've been doing the exact thing to him
We "brokeup" last night, And i thought he'd call me to makeup, But he didnt.
All he did was send me a comment on myspace which said
I know you may not ever reply, or even see this. All i want you to know is that i don't hate you, And im going to take what youve showed me and learn from it. I hope in the future we can have some sort of a friendship. I dont really have much to say except i respect you, and i love you. This has been fun, Bye.
Thats not normally like him at all.
Usually he will fight like hell for me,
And tell me over and over how he's not going to leave me.
Im so alone and scared. Hes one of the best things to happen to me, And i screwed it up.
I really am considering counseling? I think i have a problem.
Not to mention on the way home from school, Some sophmore decided to come sit by me with his video recorder rolling and ask me if i liked girls?
"Your facebook said you did"
I dont even have a facebook?
And now this video clip of me is going to be all over the internet.
He purposely set me up to look like an idiot.
I dont even feel like living anymore.
Im not suicidal by any means, But i just mean i want to crawl under a rock and stay there.
No one cares anymore, And this time, Its my fault...
